December 2011
111 posts
ravenskhaoticlament-deactivated asked: In response to what you said - I don't want to tell any one that I like them or any thing like that because it's always the same story with any girl I've ever showed interest in ever since high school. I'm just tired of getting hurt. I try to ignore it, but I can't. I keep thinking there's a possibility I could be lesbian, but I'm not getting a divorce just to...
November 2011
216 posts
The time has come to........
Shave my head. There are several reasons I want to shave my head;
1. Hormonal Imbalance. See below, PCOS.
2. I have never really liked my hair.
3. I would like to start anew.
I developed PCOS around the time I moved here to Wa in Dec 2008. It was devastating to me because I knew that PCOS caused infertility. Luckily, I was able to get pregnant with my daughter. Unless I get it under control,...
I am spent.
I am totally exhausted today. Bianca is running me ragged. I really miss having a babysitter for her. I haven’t really been in the mood to blog lately. The second I do, I will be here. Love you, Tummie.
Winter thoughts.
Just sitting here, watching Ghost Hunters and listening to the rain fall. I love the rain and cooler weather. I don’t feel as hostile. LOL. I love the rain and snow, but at the same time, I don’t like to be in it. LOL. Living here in WA, you definitely can’t get away from it. Most of the year it rains and snows. You really have to enjoy living with it. I am really anxious about...
On edge.
I really need to find affordable daycare for Bianca. I love being with her, but I think its time for her to spend some time with children her age. Not to mention, I could really use some help. We had a babysitter for a few months, but we let her go because we wanted to have money for the holidays. I think we might have to find another one. She requires so much attention and I need someone, who can...
ravenskhaoticlament-deactivated asked: I'm always nervous ;) lol
Ugh!
I am not feeling well at all today. My whole body hurts. I just want to feel better. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I feel like I have no energy for anything. Not even to take a shower. I want to lay around and sleep, but at the same time I don’t want to. The weather is changing here. Soon it will be snowing. I love this snow, but hate the gloomy feeling that the weathers gives off. I...
Midday rant.
Its beautiful here today. Sun is shining bright and its 35 degrees. Of course, Jeff is at work and Bianca is down for a nap. I know I should do some cleaning, but I really don’t want to. I feel like that is all I do everyday and frankly I am tired of it. Naturally, I get tired of looking at the house a mess and end up being the one to clean it. Besides, I like things done a certain way, so I...
Its been a few days.
I am ever so sorry for neglecting you, Tumblr. I haven’t really been in the mood to blog, but here I am. Just sitting on the couch, debating on whether to make a delicious cup of hot cocoa. HAHAHA, of course I am going to have some delicious hot cocoa. I have been feeling pretty down lately. I have also been exhausted and in pain. I love my life, but I really want to take a vacation from it....
Home alone with my thoughts
Just got home from marriage counseling. Jeff took Bianca to get us dinner, so I am alone with my thoughts. All of our problems stem from me. I have no sexual desire at all. Our counselor wants me to contact my Dr about possible taking a supplement for sexual dysfunction. I have no sexual desire, what so ever. Whether it is a man or a woman, I just don’t want sex. Our counselor told me that I...
